Calling Ourselves on Our Own Numbers

Posted by Steve Beckow

I know, I know. Bill Brockbrader may have been released yesterday or may have been put on trial. The cabal may not have surrendered yesterday (June 21) – or they may have and we just don’t know it. These are big, important events and here I am talking about behavior.

But I have to tell you, this is where it’s at for me in this Year of Ascension.

I said a while back that I’d presumed that many of the skills and techniques of the awareness movement (growth movement, human-potential movement) had survived to this day. More than that, I assumed that the younger generations would have taken those skills another mile down the road.

I’m no longer as certain that they have survived and I’d like to resuscitate some of them as being very useful to the lightwork we’re doing and as a preparation for Ascension.

I’d like to discuss today what we used to term “calling yourself on your own” … well, number. We’d didn’t use such plain-vanilla language back then, but “number” will do. Or “racket.”  Or “stuff.”

If you were to say to me, “Steve, you’re arrogant.” I would take a look and see if I can detect arrogance within me. If I detected a tinge of it, or if my inquiry was met with an arrogant response, or if in trying arrogance on, it fit, I would respond, “Yes, I’m arrogant” or “Yes, I can be arrogant” or “Yes, I see arrogance down there.”

If you said, “Steve, you’re a hypocrite,” I would take a look. If I saw what the other was talking about, I’d reply, “Yes, I can be a hypocrite.”

If you said, “Steve, you’re jealous,” I would try it on. Chances are I’d reply, “No, I’m not jealous. Jealousy is not something that applies to me. For whatever reason, I don’t generally feel jealous.”

So calling yourself isn’t about simply lying down and being a doormat. It’s about acknowledging what’s true and what’s not. What it isn’t about is denying, excusing and justifying bad behavior.

The other day, an erstwhile friend took a swing at me and missed me by a half an inch or so. Close enough that I heard the air swish by me.  I said to him, “You seem aggressive.” He didn’t bat an eyelid but when on haranguing me.

A few minutes later, he wagged his finger just an inch or so from my face and had a snarl on his face. I pinched his finger lightly and said, “You seem aggressive.” Again, he didn’t break his stride but kept on haranguing me.

This is an example of not being willing to take a look at ourselves, not being willing to call ourselves on our own number.

If I had succeeded in getting his attention and asked him what the source of his anger was, he might have said, “I’m not angry.” He may even have shouted that at me. Or he might have said, “I’m angry because you made me angry.” Or he might have said, “Well, it serves you right.” This would be denying, excusing, or justifying his anger.

No pass. Do not collect $200.

It’s a great blessing to be around a person who’s willing to call him or herself on the way they’re being. It’s a huge step up in human efficiency to be willing to say “I feel angry” rather than throw a punch.

In the awareness movement, the price of admission would have been to allow yourself to be called on your behavior. It would have been a real accomplishment to have moved on from there and to call yourself on your own behavior without needing to be called by someone else.

On one side of that line, lies adult, dharmic and (increasingly) acceptable behavior and on the other  childish/parental, adharmic and (increasingly) unacceptable behavior. And you’ve either crossed that bridge or you have not. (There’s no hovering.)

The other day you might’ve said to me, “Steve, you seem really annoyed that someone should have posted a picture of Noah’s Ark next to a column attributed to the Galactic Federation and made a statement that a great flood would occur.” The proper response from me, if I want to have my ante in the growth game, would be: “Yes, I’m really annoyed.  I saw it as threatening to defeat much good work telling the truth about our situation and reassuring a public that could very well feel spooked. Yes, I was irritated.”

Or I could say, “No, I wasn’t. Perhaps I spoke poorly or did not communicate well.” Or  belligerently: “Well, who wouldn’t be?” Or I could say, “Well, it served him right.” etc., rather than acknowledging the fact and being done with it. In denying, excusing and justifying, I’m sidestepping the bull. Which would mean that my bad behavior would get to live to fight another day.  And you have to put up with it another day. Sooner or later you’d grow tired of it.

SaLuSa said June 20, 2012:

“Whatever happens around you or directly to you, stay strong and any problems should be quickly resolved as you are now clearly on the upward curve and leaving the lower energies behind. In fact so many of you are drawing a clear line between yourselves and the old energies that no longer satisfy your desire for the pure things in life. [My emphasis.]

“It can cause difficulties between family and friends but you have to follow your own needs. You are in a time of self-realization and discovering who you really are, and no longer beholden to the opinions of others. If necessary make your own pathway to Ascension and allow others to do the same. Loved ones may also be involved but they too must follow their intuition, and we reiterate that the love link will always be there.” (1)

Translated into my language, that seems to indicate that it’s OK to part company with those who insist on remaining stuck in old-paradigm ways of denying, excusing and justifying their bad behavior.

We’ll always love them and we can catch up with them later, if we want to. But I’m getting the sense that we don’t have to abide, any longer, the bad behavior we’ve inflicted on each other in this run-up to Ascension.

It’s time to fish or cut bait. And I for one have a huge appetite for fishing right now. I want to unfold. I want to blossom. I no longer want to continue to play games, float rackets, or do my numbers on other people and abide theirs. I’m engaging in what John Enright would have called “hard-nosed permission giving” with myself. It’s OK, Steve, not to abide bad behavior any more.

Jesus said to his follower, who wanted to leave his side and return and bury his father: “Let the dead bury the dead.” “The dead,” in my view are those who insist on remaining in unconscious awareness – to remain blind to their numbers.

Why let them bury the dead? Because anyone who is consciously aware would realize that the “dead” do not die. One who was alive or consciously aware would also realize that an Avatar stands before him.

He has the chance this moment to drop everything, leave the routine of his life and walk on with an Avatar.  The dead would still get buried. It isn’t essential that he bury them. But the chance to meet Jesus, hear him, decide to walk with him, and realize the huge benefit that attends that for oneself and the world – that may come only once in one’s life.  He has to take that opportunity now – or not.

And so it is here. Ascension comes only once in 26,000 years for the vast majority of us. I want to play in this arena. I want to ascend. I’m no longer content to argue endlessly with hard gameplayers or to remain attached to people who throw punches at me and won’t cop to the way they’re feeling.

I mean no disrespect. It’s a simple choice. I choose to move on from the old paradigm of excuses, denials, and justifications for bad behavior to the new paradigm of trying on what others say, seeing if they are right, and calling myself on my stuff, if stuff I see.

So, for me anyways, it’s time to wake up and smell the coffee. It’s time to see that a once-in-100 lifetimes event is here: Ascension. It’s time to choose what works and no longer be satisfied with what doesn’t work, has never worked and will never work.

Anyone who chooses to go along with me is welcome. The price of admission is that you be willing to call yourself on your own stuff.

Anyone who doesn’t is welcome to choose that too. I’ll walk this road if I have to walk it alone and whatever other cost I must pay.

It’s the only road worth walking, as far as I’m concerned.

Footnotes

(1) SaLuSa, June 20, 2012, athttp://www.treeofthegoldenlight.com/First_Contact/Channeled_Messages_by_Mike_Quinsey.htm